Untold Stories

♥ Sunday, June 28, 2009 ♥

Never Say Never

"The Fray -Never Say Never" is such a meaningful song.

It reminds me of the reality that i am too ashame to face or
the truth that i have tried so hard to suppressed so that
i could still look into the mirror and tell myself that i
have done nothing wrong.

I tried so hard to hide the "ugly" side of me by
pointing out the weaknesses of others and the mistakes
that they have made.

I tried so hard to put down my past because i dont wanna
admit how much i have hurt the people that trusted me
so much. The betray that they never once deserved from me.

But no matter how much i have tried, it's inescapable-
the guilt that haunts me every night for my mistakes,
my selfishness, my ungratefulness..........

Why and how can i be so heartless?
Where did my conscience go to?

I dont think i can ever forgive myself knowing that
there's more than millions of people out there who
are and had suffered so badly and would do almost
anything to exchange places with me but yet i
took those around me for granted and let them
slip away from my life.....

How come i couldnt even shed a single tear when i let go?
How come i couldnt even feel the slightest sadness
while moving on?
How could i be so cold?
How could i be so ignorant?

Why is it that i could feel this deep hole of guilt inside of me
but still cant open up my heart?

Sometimes, i just wished i was the one who was being
walked away from....
Sometimes, i wished i was the one being taken granted for.....
Sometimes, i wished i was the one being let go of.....
Sometimes, i wished i was the one being hurt instead..

If only it was me.... if only i could,
then i would understand the pain
that i have caused.

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 2:47 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Saturday, June 20, 2009 ♥

YES! YES! YES!!!

I JUST GOT THE NEWS....

Okay, my bro had been complaining how the States
is so boring and all that. True. The place he's staying
at is so boring, i wouldnt be able to survive 1 month there,
whatmore, he studied almost 4 years =.=

And previously, he was considering transferring to
some of the Universities in Taipei and Singapore
considering that their research institutions are
pretty good- most of which are top 50 in world rankings.

I thought he'll choose Singapore over Taiwan but but.....
I JUST GOT the news few mins ago. It's confirmed, he's leaving the States
this July officially and got into National Taiwan U.... ARGHHHH
home of JAY CHOU!!! i'll be going taipei very often... I GUESS!!!!
yay!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

for once my bro, made a REALLY
GOOD CHOICE!!!!!!! wooohooooo!!! too excited for words!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! JAY CHOU!!! WO LAI LE!!!

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 1:22 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Monday, June 8, 2009 ♥

R for REGRETS

Ever felt like you wanna undo something in your past?

The regrets that persistently follows you each and every day,
almost like that shadow of yours that you couldn't run away from.

How i wish i could turn back time
How i wish i could change the past
How i wish i could have made it even better
How i wish i didnt make that promise
How i wish i didnt say those words

But without those regrets and the past,
how would the present be like?
A question that still remains unanswered.

Will it be different?
For better or for worst?

There's no way of turning back time,
that's for sure.

Have only got the present to live in,
the future to look forward to
and....

...these regrets to remind me of
the mistakes that i have made for the rest
of my life.....

The regrets, only so that mistakes would not be repetitive.

The regrets, that would undo itself when the same problem arises
but a different choice is taken.

The regrets, that might be a heavy burden
but holds the key of happiness in your life........

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 9:50 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Wednesday, June 3, 2009 ♥

And the days passes by so swiftly....

Just a short update.
Wont be elaborating much
since the pictures will do the
talking =)

The pictures are just from like
everywhere. Too lazy to check
out the dates and upload 'em
from the latest to the oldest
or vice versa.

Geelong

Vun Hau came to pick me up from my house. Initially we
wanted to have dim sum @ Doncaster. Unfortunately, it
was mother's day and the restaurant was fully booked.

So we just had lunch in the city and then he drove back
to the area that he's staying at, Geelong, so that i could
check out the beach. From the city to Geelong takes
about an hour ++ Crazy.

By the time we reached there it was around 2 pm
and we walked around this shopping mall. Nothing
much, since it's just a small shopping mall as compared
to the ones in the city!

And so we left to the beach.......

Pretty aint it?

After that, Vun Hau suggested we should go this
other nicer beach. It's 30 mins drive from Geelong.

At first i was reluctant to because it was far and scared
would "mah fan" Vun Hau. Petrol not cheap eh!
But he persuaded and i gave in.

No regrets, at all. REALLY!
That whole area was just cool.
Close to the beach were all these well-designed and
beautiful summer houses. So pretty, i wanna have
one of my own. Totally perfect getaway for the
summer.

And the beach, it was so pretty.
The scenery was just magnificent.
Pictures could only capture that much
of its beauty, the rest is just indescribable.

A lovely evening to complement the view, as well.
Wasn't sunny. Pretty cloudy. Slightly breezy.

Vun Hau & I

Really tiring though, especially the trip back
to my house. Took almost like 2 hours ++
But was definitely worth it!

Yean Sia's & Derek's B'day celebration

Ken, Derek, Anna, Andy, Crystal,
Eug, Sin, Me, Kam, Yean Sia, Karen & Charlene

Us again. With some random pose.

Another round?

Somehow i find Vodka Breezer to be so-so
as compared to Midori. Lime was fine.
Watermelon sucks.

And Charlene was so "yeng". Down-ing
all the way for two bottles and this girl
can sure drink REAL FAST.
*I wonder how big her throat really is?*

Sin, you better start practicing your down-ing
skills already. The last two round of down-ing,
it was one tie and she beat you down the other round.

Total Girl Power!

Here she is...

Mel, me, charlene, sianee =)

Love this, taken from the balcony

*Cheers*

Bowling @ Chaddy

Purpose was to celebrate Anna's birthday.
Yay!

Shoes, shoes, shoes. Spot the odd one out
and guess who?

Me, Kam & Anna

Random shots

All looking intensely.

I did fine for first round.
2nd round, was just crap!

Sianee, Mel, me, Charlene

Oh look, somebody thinks my cap
look like strawberries.

Australia's kindergarten school teachers should
stop associating pink/red with strawberries.
This is what happens when they do that!
Jono attacking the "strawberry".

Ken, Jono, Viktor, Derek, Crystal, Kam, Valerie,
Anna, Me, Eug, Mel, Sin, Yean Sia, Charlene =)

Angels & Demons @ Chadstone

Watched Angels & Demons @ Chaddy.
Was a great night =)

The girls with Daniel.

Group photos again!

Random

Taken during autumn.

Perfect jump shot.

And perfect landing.......
*wink wink*

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 11:27 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Wednesday, May 13, 2009 ♥

Friendship Through Time

Notice how life is divided into different phases,
almost like a new chapter each time you head on
to a new destination.

Notice how you gain new experiences and friends
in your new chapter and along the way, you slowly lose
those that you had in the past.

People come in and out of your circle through time. At the
end of the day, you could only assume that those, who will be
there for you right at this moment and those who knows you so
well right at this moment, are your "friends".

But then, you're given a mission to continue this journey, just when
you have found the people you would allow into your circle.
Just when you thought you have found lifelong companions.

And so you move on with a heavy heart, wondering tiredly
when would you have the chance to have back "those days".
Cruel but to be realistic, those days are gone FOREVER.

The new chapter begins and the story never repeats itself twice.
Your longing for the past is just greeted with sympathy.

Filled with hopelessness, you start to look for a change.
You try to fit in. Along the process, you meet new people;
people whom you would come to call friends. Intriguing but
the closer you get with these new people, the further the gap
you have with the old ones that you once called "friends" as well.

Neglect is probably the most appropriate adjective to describe
this situation... but then again, you have your reasons.

Not like you intended to but you have moved on,
so did they. And suddenly, you find your "old" friends
not knowing much about you anymore. What happened?

You're terrified. Maybe it's time to downgrade the
ones you called friends to strangers and the ones you
called best friends to just, friends. With time, one
by one, they vanish into thin air becoming no
one significant.

"Mary, who's that? Cant really remember"

or

"Oh, Mary....what about her?" with an uninterested tone.

As the victim of this on-going process for
years, i cant do anything but to be helpless.

What i can only do is to fully appreciate
the people whom i consider as friends now.
It wouldn't be long before i lose them, again.

I have to close this chapter, somehow.
Things will change, i wouldnt dare to deny.

This moment can never be replicated.

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 4:44 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Friday, May 1, 2009 ♥

Jay, here i come

Today is the first day tickets are on sale and

there were only very few tickets left =.=

Really crazy. But then it's Jay's very first

concert in Australia.

Hopefully my seat isnt that far! =)

Oh well, doesnt matter since i've

been to his concert in KL last year.

Just gonna enjoy it better this time

round.

And of course, to have a great winter

break in Sydney =)

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the GIRL was here at 2:41 PM - Melbourne .

♥ Tuesday, April 28, 2009 ♥

Karaoke session + B'day celebration

During the semester break, we made
a trip down to Melbourne Central to
have karaoke @ Party World.

Yay!

It was really fun.

And we camwhored a lot =.=

Charlene & I

Me, Charlene, Mel, Yean Sia

Singing =) happily.

Sue Han & I

Melanie & I

More random pix

Had great fun singing Hot & Cold.
Everyone just went crazy.

And we were still so hyper after 5 hours of singing!

I like this =) nice picture.

and more... after dinner with CCM in the city
@ La Porchetta.

Train station! =)

That night we stayed over at Charlene's
place.

Midori <3 love it

Charlene getting a lil hyper =)

.............and this went on 'till 3 am.

We didnt bring any
blankets for the stay over and we were
freezing cold at 5 am.

In the end, we didnt have enough sleep.
Maybe 1 or 2 hour... i dont know...
everyone was pretty exhausted.

But we still went on with our plan.
Had brunch @ Docklands.

Dim Sum =) yummy.

and a cake?

It was Yean Sia & Sue Han's birthday celebration.

Here we are, so freaking tired but still putting
in so much effort to pose for the cameras =)

And we did more shopping at Docklands.

Went over to St. Kilda in the evening
to Melanie's aunt's place.
Her mom came to Melbourne.
And made us dinner =) how nice?
Thanks aunty, it was so delicious.

0 Served Me!

the GIRL was here at 9:05 PM - Melbourne .